My amazing husband who went from boy to man to father,
You have done this husband thing so well. I love you more
now than I ever have before (and that is to be expected) but I respect you more
now than I ever have before and that is surprising: because I know you more.
Most of the time, day-to-day living wears that down. It reveals the cracks and
says, “Yes, I am committed, but I don’t always have to like it.” You let your
cracks lead us both to light, and I am better for it.
A good friend said to me after you played her a song, “You
had told me he was good, but I didn’t know he was that good. You just seem to
expect him to excel. I’ve never seen you believe in someone that much.”
You never had a father to show you how to be a husband, but
you chose to learn and watch and do and give your all. God put people in your
life to help fill the void you never fully realized you had. We’ve spent 10
months together as man and wife, and 9 months together as man and pregnant
wife. Now we will spend the rest of our lives as mother and father.
You feel it strongly, as you watch the young girl pass by,
“Will we let our daughter wear those shorts?” You feel it tenderly, as my belly
bumps you, “Stop! I have to kiss her again.” You feel it achingly, as we read
the racial headlines, “What are we bringing her into?”
You will be an amazing father. I know this because you want
it, and you will not stop until you achieve it: that is who you are. You will
kiss her cheeks too much, and throw her too high in the air, and have to leave
the room so she won’t see your smile when you try to discipline her—but you
will be an amazing father.
You will learn from those around you, and mostly from your
heavenly Father—since your earthly father is not here to teach you. You won’t
get everything right, but you will love her and you will let those cracks lead
our family to the light.
Donald Miller says the number one thing that healthy
families do is be honest about their failures: “however, it wasn’t just honesty
about a family’s troubled narrative that fueled a child’s health. It was the true
story about how the family both succeeds and fails and yet stays together
regardless.” I am ready for this adventure with you, my love.
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Caid has also been busy vlogging--here are links to his vlogs since the "Ready to Pop" and other ones I posted on here:
Thank you to all those invovled in the Trek!
While I stayed home and rested, Caid got to help at a trip to the botanical gardens:
and part 2:
Check out his amazing vlogging at "Five Minutes of Fergie" on youtube:)
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