Nine Months Married

I got out of the car to head into church last Sunday and Caid said, "I feel like you are dousing me with a bucket of water anytime I say anything about having a baby. You are being pessimistic."

Ouch.

I am. 

And baby talk has been creeping in more and more and I fight more and more every time. 

Do I want to be a mom?

Yes.

Now?

Uhhhhh…

Reasons? There are always reasons. Student loans, Caid finishing college, unsure what happens next…

Kid phase of life is just so…permanent.

But I don’t want to be controlling. I don’t want to be pessimistic. I want to be a “Yes” person. Embrace life and trust.

Supercamp was incredible. Standing side by side, working with Caid in a professional/growing job, and then collapsing into bed each night to pray for everyone we’d just met…it was deepening and intimate to grow together in this way.

We have enjoyed relaxing more this past week (after working 7am-11pm in Florida, most anything is relaxing), and thinking about/reflecting on what God has been doing in our lives. Just look at Caid’s list of accomplishments since last June:

• ·         Graduated with Associates degree
• ·         Written many songs
• ·         Triple hernia surgery
• ·         Knee surgery
• ·         Painted the inside of a house
• ·         Spent 3 months on a foreign field
• ·         Taught and led a school musical
• ·         Taught and led sports ministries
• ·         3 weddings
• ·         Honeymoon on a beach
• ·         Adjusted to move/jobs/inlaws/marriage
• ·         Extensive tutoring
• ·         Christmas in Connecticut
• ·         San Diego/Disney trip
• ·         Two training internships with Supercamp
• ·         Two jobs: Cornerstone associates and Supercamp
• ·         Straight A average and on schedule to get Bachelor’s degree May 2015
• ·         Paid off almost $20,000 in student loans
• ·         Commissioned as a missionary
• ·         Leading a missions trip to Brazil in October

We were able to go to the State fair this week. It was funny, because the last time we had gone to the fair was in 2011, when my sister loudly exclaimed, “So you are having a summer fling thing? Rachel isn’t good at flings.” 

At the State Fair in 2011

At the State Fair in 2014 (same turtle shell thing)