I opened up social media to see "50 people shot," and I was shocked and saddened.
I read further to, "In a gay bar" and I held my breath.
And here I need to apologize. Because I didn't hold my breath because I was hurt: I held my breath because I was hoping that the shooter wasn't someone calling themselves a Christian.
I let out my breath when I read it was connected to Islam and/or ISIS.
I apologize because somewhere along the line, I became more worried about people's disapproval and disgust than about the lives of people.
What kind of pause would I have had if the headlines instead read, "In a church?" or "50 Missionaries" ?
I apologize. I stop, weep, ache and stand in support with those killed, wounded, and hurting.#PrayforOrlando
Just because I do not agree with, or support someone's choices does not mean I stop loving them, supporting them, or valuing their lives any less. If this were true, then I would hate to step out the door because I make wrong choices too.
President Obama made a speech about "Attacks on any American- regardless of race, ethnicity, religion, or sexual orientation is an attack on us all."
As a Christian, I take out the word "American" and put in "human." Because God so loved the world.
And here I must apologize once again.
Because I have not mourned with the ISIS fighters who have died, with those considered our enemies. There is never a time to pause and put my own agenda forward over hurting and dying people.
This is a radical and controversial statement. Good. Then it must be getting close to the real deal of following Jesus.
Feliz Dia das Namorados! (Brazilian Valentine's Day) We are super grateful that Ana Sofia had finished cutting her second top tooth and now we get to sleep at night (it was a good two weeks of horror). I feel like I have just come out of a daze. And good thing too, because this week we are finishing up the first semester of Living Stones!
(did you see our weekly vlog? This was last week)
Please keep us and the kids in your prayers as we have three weeks off to re-group and re-plan and rest and on to the second semester! (in Brazil, school goes from February-December, not August-June)
Wednesday is the last soccer practice at Cajueiro
Saturday is the last basketball game at Guadalajara
Next Tuesday is the last English/basketball class at Lagoa
This week we are working on a very important vlog about Zika and being pregnant--can't wait to share it with you!
I filled out a police report once. A mother had come to the youth center looking for her kid and when she could find them she punched me in the eye and was chocking me against a van before I realized what was happening. My arms were at my sides, useless. I just never expected anyone to act like that.
And so she was pulled off and walked away and the police were called and I had to file a report. I didn't press charges because I had seen her kids and didn't want worse to happen to them. But filling out the report was hard. My black eye was looking around the room for places to hide.
The policemen were kind. I've been raised all my life to know they help keep us safe- but I didn't feel safe; somehow, in reporting the events, listing my name and information- I felt like it was my fault. I was the victim here, and yet I carried the guilt.
When the perpetrator isn't there to take responsibility, or refuses responsibility, it makes the innocent party question, "Is this my fault?" Worse yet, it often makes those around them wonder.
I can only imagine what the pain would be like for a rape victim, and that is just in filling out reports- the first step of a humiliating road. My heart goes out to that woman (in the Brock Turner case), and all other rape victims. I wish I could add here all of my suggestions of how to make it better- but I don't even know how to yet. I feel helpless against a culture of "boys will be boys" and "20 minutes of action."
I am so grateful to have been raised by parents to taught me I could be anything ("But please be the one thing God wants you to be."), to have been surrounded by a community that encouraged me every step, and to have a husband that cannot imagine life without me next to him, as his equal and partner. I cannot remember one time where I felt victimized or held back because I was a woman.
I pray this will be the story of my daughter, and of every other girl/woman I know. And I will work to see this happen.
A good pick up game of Basketball with the Living Stones kids
At the gym
At the grocery store (I am a beast)
Waking up multiple times a night with a teething baby
Things that are not 20 minutes of action:
Porn
Destroying someone with words and/or actions
Getting drunk/high
Rape
If you have not heard about Brock Turner yet, you can google him. His father said three months of prison was a steep price to pay for "20 minutes of action." Brock said it was Standford's party scene/alcohol that was to blame. Neither said sorry to the victim.
That rape was a result of countless days, weeks, and years of choices that would take him to a place where he could ever think it was ok to take advantage of someone in that way. I wonder if the media would have ever noticed this case if Brock and his father had actually apologized and acted sincerely remorseful...
So we have been talking about vlogs and vlogging and all that--especially with last month, where we posted a vlog every single day. I wanted to show you a bit of what goes into making a vlog. There are all kinds of vlogs. Some are just a collection of short videos I have of Ana Sofia. Others are documenting an event, like Easter. Some are just Caid and I talking about something we value/think is important. Sometimes, we even have a script:).
Here was our script (blog) about officially becoming missionary vloggers--and then below, you can watch the actual vlog. We know that some people prefer reading rather than watching, so will try to give you both options when we can!
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1.Vlogging is video blogging. This is a relatively new (within the last 10 years) method of sharing information. Once upon a time it was slide shows and paper newsletters—then it was pictures and power point—then it was blogging and e-mails—now it is vlogging.
2.Labels are important. There was a time it was hard for me to call myself a missionary, let alone a missionary vlogger. We choose what labels stick to us, and as we choose them, they often help us choose who we become. It was hard for me to call myself a missionary because I so looked up to the title—and didn’t know if I was “good enough” to be one. It took over 5 years of working as a missionary to realize that I was one, and I was a good one.
3.We don’t know of any other missionary vloggers. I have looked on Youtube and found lots of mommy vloggers and family vloggers and fashion vloggers—but not missionary vloggers. We feel like many people don’t understand or have misconceptions about missions and missionaries, and that this is one way to show people more of what it is like.
4.We sort of “fell into” vlogging. It was Caid’s idea, as our coworker suggested that video is the best way to connect with people. Gradually I vlogged more, especially as our daughter was born, creating an insatiable desire for more footage from family members. We started watching the Shaytards and other vloggers, and realized we would need to be more intentional about it if we really wanted to make an impact.
5.We are making this up as we go. There isn’t any specific rules about vlogging—just that the really successful ones either do it VERY often (daily) or Very professional (expensive), and those things both take a lot of time. We cannot commit to daily or very professional, as we are not full-time vloggers, we are full-time missionaries. But we can give you a heartfelt weekly look into our lives.
6.Our goal is to CONNECT. As missionaries, we work in Brazil to train leaders and churches to work with the poorest kids in their communities. We work through sports and music and English classes, and we love on a lot of amazing kids. But in Brazil, we are working ourselves OUT of a job, as the kids grow into leaders and the leaders take ownership. The other side of our job is to connect Brazil to you and you to Brazil. We all (you and me and Brazil) need each other to grow and learn and challenge each other: and missionary vlogging is a strong, current tool available to us to better do this.
7.Our vlogging statement is: ”Short Ferguson Adventures to Connect and Share Missions.” Short (5 minutes) Ferguson (Fergie…that’s us) adventures (optimism on life) to connect and share missions (weekly missionary vlogs).
8.We have five kinds of vlogs. Our five playlists are 1. Missionary vlogs, 2. Short term missions vlogs (when people come visit us), 3. Music and 4. Language vlogs (other ways we do missions/ministry), and 5. Starring Ana Sofia (for the grandmothers).
9.Our goal is to build resources. As missionaries, we are also raising funds: for us and for the kids at Living Stones. We are not ashamed to say we would love to use missionary vlogging as a way to raise money (if it goes that way in the future). We will be using these videos to share needs, and share ways you can give financially, if you feel called to do so.
10.We can’t do this alone. We need your ideas and insight and comments on what videos to make! We need you to subscribe and like and share our videos with others! Maybe you are new to the vlogging world, or maybe you make your own videos—share with us, connect with us, and we will call it success!
So not everything goes as scripted...but we love sharing and doing vlogs! If you haven't gotten it by now--our BIG ANNOUNCEMENT is that we are going to be making weekly vlogs--it is official!
In 2008 I almost became a single mother. Ihad worked and volunteered at a youth center for over 6 years and had some amazing close relationships with some of the girls there. So when one, 15, got pregnant and thought her only option was an abortion- I was her alternative.
I offered and begged to adopt her baby. And because she knew and trusted me (and knew I could give her baby a good home) she considered it. Her family, her culture: every other person around her told her she had to get an abortion. And in the end, they won. But I had a chance to open other options for her because of our long standing relationship.
This article outlining a new study suggests that women will have abortions whether it is legal or not. And I believe most of them truly think they have no other option. And they will continue to think that until someone enters their lives and shows them another way.
Last week I finally had time for Sunday Funday on Thursday, and then some of the websites were not working. So I saved the links for this week.
This has been the first week this YEAR of just us. Now--we have LOVED our three months on furlough (home assignment) in the USA, and then over two months with my brother, and then short term mission trips...but this week I have caught myself looking around and wondering why things are so quiet or simple. "Oh yeah," I remember, "This is the just us life." It has been nice to return to normal, although Ana has not been sleeping well (up every two or three hours at night) because of that second top tooth coming in.
And now the year is half over. Goodness. Made me really enjoy this thought of June being the new January.
Funny how life changes you? "How are You and God" is still one of my favorite questions...but.
Just found this blogger recently, and loved her posts! A year of Awesome? Yes please! I really like what she said about missionaries posting pictures of having fun...it is a real issue, sad to say.
I loved the bottom line on this article. Just read the title.
Just some woman sharing some stories. And it made me tear up.
What is so sad...is how good things and good intentions and so many good people can end up in screwy situations.
